Tuesday, August 18, 2015

Getting Back

Hey guys!

I know, it's been a while! I was pretty consistent for a couple of months, and then SWOOSH!! Gone without a word...

The truth is simple: I needed a vacation. Honestly, I still kind of do.
I just needed to get away from everything for a while, the blogs, most of the Internet, my plans to move to the UK, bla bla bla!
I just needed a break.

So I decided to take some time off.
But the thing is, it's impossible to take time off from your mind.
I tried so hard not to think of all the hardships I'll go trough, I tried not to think about not being with the ones I love for months, I tried not to think about how hard it'll be to work, study and manage two blogs at the same time, I tried not to think of the fact that I want to get back to YouTube, yet that you'll just be another add up to the stress... I tried!

Unfortunately, that didn't happen. AT ALL!
Yeah, I was able to shut off for maybe 45mins straight max (thank you, TV shows), and get trough movies and kdramas without think about any of the previous things more than once.
And I was able to appreciate some quality time with my family, which was my main goal, so that wasn't so bad!

But I became far from shutting off. Everyone wants to know everything! They want answers I don't even have, and give me the stink eye for not having them!
I don't think people realize how hard this is.
Everyone just assumes it's all rainbows and unicorns, like "yey you're moving away, not annoying parents, new country, party, don't care, yeeeeeeah"...
yeeeeeeah right!

Having to deal with homesickness, working, studying (hard, because I'm an overachiever like that), blogging and hopefully YouTubeing (which I love, but still takes time and effort), getting used to a new county, leaving with people I don't know so well, having no one around that actually knows the real me, being shy as hell, being weird as hell, and, in the midst of all, staying sane... does not really sound thaaaaaaaat much like rainbows and unicorns, now does it?


Don't get me wrong ok, I'm super thankful for all of this!
It's a crazy opportunity that so many people wish to have and don't! And I did dream about this for a long time!
But two years ago, reality decided to slap me in the face (long story short, my grandmother passed away), and made me realize that the most precious thing in this world are the people who you love and who love you, and that you should do your best not to waste a second with them.

So how do I do that, and study abroad for 3 years at the same time??

Answer: I have no idea.
But I hope to find out! SOON!! Or at the least, before I lose it for good...
And I hope you'll stick around to find out too!



Anyway, this was all to say that I'm back!!
Haha!
And also to update you on what's going to be going on soon. I'll probably go around mid September, and I'll try to have back up post for that time, but that might not happen.
On another hand, you can expect lots of stuff coming about about  my new (very scary and terrifying) journey, good and bad. So I hope you'll like that!

See you on Friday!






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